Jack: - You happy? -
Joy: Yes.
Jack: - What kind of happy? -
Joy: Just happy.
Jack- You know my kind of happy? -
Joy: How stupid. I forget. When you ask a question, it means you have the answer waiting.  So go ahead, tell me.- Come on. -
Jack:I'm not telling you now.
Joy: What do I have to do, go to the lecture?
Jack: Yes. Buy the book.  You know, I don't want to be somewhere else anymore.
I'm not waiting for anything new to happen... not looking around the next corner and over the next hill. I'm here now. That's enough.
Joy: - That's your kind of happy, isn't it? -
Jack: Yes. Yes, it is.

"When you are happy, so happy that you have no sense of needing Him you will be - or so it feels - welcomed with open arms. But go to Him when your need is desperate, when all other help is vain, and what do you find? A door slammed in your face, and a sound of bolting and double bolting on the inside. After that, silence."

 

By the end of A Grief Observed, Lewis has come to terms with his suffering, although his pain is obviously still raw.

"Talk to me about the truth of religion and I'll listen gladly," he wrote.

"Talk to me about the duty of religion and I'll listen submissively. But don't come talking to me about the consolations of religion or I shall suspect that you don't understand."

My Background to My Computer

Joy Davidman Gresham Lewis

A nominal deist will say : "Yes, of course there must be some sort of Force that created the galaxy. But it's childish to imagine that It has any personal relation to me!" In that belief atheism exists as an undiagnosed disease. The man who says, "One God," and does not care, is an atheist in his heart. The man who speaks of God and will not recognize the presence of God burning in his mind as Moses recognized him in the burning bushthat man is an atheist, though he speak with the tongues of men or angels, and appear in his pew every Sunday, and make large contributions to the church.

~J. Gresham Lewis, Smoke on the Mountain

Quotes

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous?

Actually, who are you not to be? We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. "

~Marianne Williamson